My Anxiety-Personal Narrative Analysis

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Well it’s now 5:30pm, I’ve cleaned almost the entire apartment. Not only did I tidy up the mess, I reorganized everything and carefully put away items in their correct location. Oh, the perfectionist in me… I feel like my mind is somewhat cleared now. Starting anything, especially school work is very difficult for me. My anxiety always seems to get the best of me. I find myself constantly worrying and stressing out about the smallest things, things that I have no business getting worried about and things that will be figured out eventually. My anxiety leaves me distracted in everyday situations. When grocery shopping, I’m always looking around making sure I’m not in someone’s way, as I spend 5 minutes looking for the perfect apple, then worrying …show more content…
Even people at the store, a classroom full of students, a family get-together, or co-workers at a new job, can cause my anxiety to strike. I actually get physical symptoms of anxiety. For example, I get nauseous, shaky, my whole face turns red, and my muscle tense up. My heart races and then my throat feels like there’s a lump in it. I have the hardest time getting my words out. It’s like I can’t even speak because I’m too worried about what will come out, what If it’s stupid? I don’t even engage in social media much due to being worried about the reactions of others. I have a hard time tolerating uncertainty and the future is always uncertain to me. I just try to prepare myself for the future by planning things out. I like feeling of being in control and knowing what’s coming next. This in turn makes it hard to do new things because I don’t know the …show more content…
I have always thought of these deficits as part of my personality. I know there’s so much of myself I don’t let shine through; my anxiety appears to block some of my light. How can I put an end to my constant worrying? Will I ever be able to fully enjoy myself or relax, without a worry creeping in and starting the vicious cycle once again? What are some new strategies I can try next time I feel my anxiety transforming my thoughts? It is my hope as a college student that I will learn the necessary skills to cope with my anxiety. I just want to be able to complete my work in a reasonable amount of time without re-doing it a million times and never feeling like it’s good enough. I’m in need of this information because next semester I will be taking two challenging courses. I plan to utilize Mott’s online database as well as my local library to research this

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