Experiencing depression can lead to many things . My Depression started the year of 2010. That year started a new lifestyle for me . My whole life came crumbling down into tiny pieces . Me longing for this not to happen was not enough to stop this Disease . Honestly nothing can stop this Disease. Its eternal for the rest of my life and it is no cure for it . Being so young feeling like I'm a animal that the doctor kept running test on months after months after months . Several months I had to go through this feeling helpings . Endless pain for months with no medicine to calm my illness down . I'm going to take u back to 2010.
August 26,2010 , was a beautiful sunny day . Wind fluttering against my face . The sun embracing my chocolate …show more content…
My mind literally was racing. Not knowing what's going on with my health . The doctor came in there and told me I'm going to need immediate procedure . A few minutes later I see the doctor come in with a really think tube with riges on them . She had her students follow her in also. They immediately put the tube down my nose forcing it and telling me to drink water . Being awoke during this process left a scar on me for the rest of my life . I screamed for my mom to help me . Crying for help fear in my eyes watching the hurt me. I couldn't keep still I squirmed everywhere . Crying for my mom to come and save me like she always do , but sadly she couldn't help me the procedure had to be done . I wouldn't wish that on my worse enemy …show more content…
I became really depressed feeling not normal all the time . Feeling like a genie pig . My whole life had to change . My disease cause me too have excruciating stomach pains as my white blood cells eat the walls of my enstestings . This pain no one can help me . Not even my medicine can help at times . I am helpless constantly I am stressed out or easily go through a depression . I have bleeding ulcers, migraines , cyst on my ovalry , cramps that cause me to not get out of bed , and numbness of my body once I get stressed out . To say I'm young I have went through a lot in the passed few years of my life . That takes a toll on u constantly I try to stay strong , but sometimes I can't hold up . Feels like I'm fighting a never ending battle . I have moments when I break down because of how imperfect I am compared to others . How I feel deep down in side like I'm not normal rapidly over and over . Having my body going through so much at one time . It feels as if I don't get a break if something is going right something else goes wrong everytime I look up . I don't get a break my body don't allow me
August 26,2010 , was a beautiful sunny day . Wind fluttering against my face . The sun embracing my chocolate …show more content…
My mind literally was racing. Not knowing what's going on with my health . The doctor came in there and told me I'm going to need immediate procedure . A few minutes later I see the doctor come in with a really think tube with riges on them . She had her students follow her in also. They immediately put the tube down my nose forcing it and telling me to drink water . Being awoke during this process left a scar on me for the rest of my life . I screamed for my mom to help me . Crying for help fear in my eyes watching the hurt me. I couldn't keep still I squirmed everywhere . Crying for my mom to come and save me like she always do , but sadly she couldn't help me the procedure had to be done . I wouldn't wish that on my worse enemy …show more content…
I became really depressed feeling not normal all the time . Feeling like a genie pig . My whole life had to change . My disease cause me too have excruciating stomach pains as my white blood cells eat the walls of my enstestings . This pain no one can help me . Not even my medicine can help at times . I am helpless constantly I am stressed out or easily go through a depression . I have bleeding ulcers, migraines , cyst on my ovalry , cramps that cause me to not get out of bed , and numbness of my body once I get stressed out . To say I'm young I have went through a lot in the passed few years of my life . That takes a toll on u constantly I try to stay strong , but sometimes I can't hold up . Feels like I'm fighting a never ending battle . I have moments when I break down because of how imperfect I am compared to others . How I feel deep down in side like I'm not normal rapidly over and over . Having my body going through so much at one time . It feels as if I don't get a break if something is going right something else goes wrong everytime I look up . I don't get a break my body don't allow me