Key Themes Of My Spiritual Journey

The basic themes of my spiritual journey involve two words, grace and forgiveness. I did not grow up in a Christian home so it was not until a later part of my life that I truly experienced God. I had heard different things about god through school and random TV shows I watched but my view of him was that he did not care about me. The reason for that being was because my father had left my family and me when I was 4 years old to go start a family with another woman he was seeing. I tried to have a relationship with my father but it just left me broken because he had a son with the woman he was seeing and that made me feel like a failure as a son. Because of that, I had a negative view towards god and would always think “if He was real and did love me then why did I have to get a dad that is not around for me?” Because of the situation I grew up in and …show more content…
It is sad that I can probably count the number of times I have been to recess on my hands because I was always in the office for fighting. Eventually the principal made it mandatory that I see the school counselor once a week or they would get my mother involved in possibly suspend me. With many sessions with the school counselor I opened up for the first time to someone about why I was feeling all this anger and wanted to fight people all the time/. Finally, she recommended that I try football because I could hit people without getting in trouble so I did just that. So my 7th grade year of middle school I began to play football. There I met one of my best friends to this day Garrett Graf, he went to the church that I currently serve in and is still to this day a Godly peer I look up to. Garrett had a heart for inviting people to Wednesday night youth services and I just happened to be one of his targets. So for the next year during practice and while