He does not decide to pursue a woman, but in fact he wishes to follow men and hope to have sex with them. He even was exited to take the trip to New York so he could find more men like him. Also, as mentioned previously, he does not even try to be with a woman the whole time he was there. It seems that if he was serious about choosing between the two that he would at least treat both options equally, or go with the option he thought should have been morally right first. However he pursues homosexual relationships first, not because he need to find out he was homosexual but because deep down he knew he was. He later talks about how much he resented the fact that he was a virgin and how much he quite simply wanted to have sex. This way of thinking actually reminded me of the catholic homosexual man in Silt’s book And the Band Played On, and of other homosexuals at that time period. It also showed me how his way of thinking whether he knew it or not, resembled views that believed a relationship is primarily, if not solely, based upon sex. I will discuss more about this later, but in addition to the fact that he said he was attracted to, followed, and wanted to have sex with men, he then attempts to retracted his claim just a couple pages later. This is done when he made the statement “It wasn’t …show more content…
I was appreciative of the fact that he shared his personal thoughts because it allowed me to understand his thought process more. It also gave me the opportunity to analysis some of his decisions. Some of them did in fact seem strange to me, but I am still appreciative I had the opportunity. Two things that shocked however were some of the content he was exposed to as a child and how he viewed relationships early on It seemed to me that he was exposed to X-rated content at such a juvenile age that it directly influenced his reasoning to decide between a woman and a