Thank you for sharing your situation with honesty. There are two great portions of your discussion that has invoked further conversation. One is when you mentioned, “self-confidence”, be encouraged right in the middle of your situation, I believe God has you where He wants you to be, yes, it may feel uncomfortable for you, but, God has a plan. You are in a far better place with God than you expect. The Bible says, “Be strong and be brave. Don’t be afraid…because the Lord your God is with you. He will not fail you or leave you, (Deuteronomy 31:6, Easy to Read Version).”
On the other hand, you mentioned, “time management”, yes, it can be a struggle sometimes, however, it is possible to get it all under control. A few things that help