Symptoms: The Signs That Changed My Life

My symptoms were classic signs that if it had been anyone else I probably would have noticed, but because it was myself I ignored them. I was panicky and anxious. I felt like everyone was going to leave me; that no one liked me anymore. I felt so alone it was painful. I got awful insomnia and stayed up without countless late night thoughts. I'd sleep in and it would be hard for me to wake up. Day in and day out I wouldn't want to get up or do anything because I felt so awful. I was so tired and so worn out I wouldn't want to wake up the next morning because sleeping was easier than living life and being awake. I would have crying spells. My appetite was all over the place. There would be days where I wouldn't eat and then days where I would eat everything in sight. I was always plagued with thoughts. My mind was always going and filling my head with lies and dark thoughts. The worst part though, was that I didn't feel like myself anymore, much less like a person. I felt foggy. I woke up each day and after awhile I would wake up and not recognize who I was anymore. …show more content…
These were things that could have gotten me in trouble. It took a week or two after that and after talking to one of my very good friends who has been through it and she helped me understand that my feelings were okay. I'm now on the right track and have scheduled my doctor's appointment for a depression screening. I'm much more strong than I was and I'm grateful for it.

Anyways, I've learned a lot of things in the last three months. I feel like I've been given a second chance to live my life without fear of the future, because even though three months isn't that long, it felt like forever. It felt like I was forever in fear. Also, I've learned that the people who care and love about you most will never leave you in your darkest times. Not even if it hurts them. Also, it is okay to have sad feelings. It is okay