Suicide In My Heart And Other Black Holes

My Heart and other Black Holes is one of those books that gets you wondering. As the reader, it brought me to a place where suicide wasn't wrong. I thought that taking your own life wasn't a bad thing. Well reading this book, I imaged taking Aysel's place. Aysel had been struggling with thoughts, that I too, I'd been having. The reason I cherish this book is because, for once, I didn't feel crazy about wanting to die.
I have fought depression for many years. It was a part of me that wouldn't disappear. There were even times I couldn't be around others. When reading My Heart and other Black Holes, Aysel made me feel as if I wasn't alone. I had found someone who was dealing with the same battles as me. Aysel understood that depression wasn't on the outside, but rather on the inside. We both …show more content…
I didn't need anything special to get me along, all I ever wanted was someone to care. All anyone really wants is for someone to pay attention. Roman saw Aysel differently than she saw herself. It showed me that even though she was broken, she was still capable of being loved. Roman and Aysel saved each other's lives, but that wasn't the part that meant the most. It showed that there are others like me, that I'm not alone, I'm not as broken as I thought, and lastly, it taught me how to love myself.
This story helped me to realize all of the things in life worth living for. I was able to reach out to my mother and get help. I have been talking to my guidance counselor and am now on medication. I will never be totally free from depression, but it is no longer something that controls my life. It is a part of me but, it doesn't define me. I know I'm just one 14 years old girl, who might not matter to the world, but one thing I know for sure is that I matter to someone. My heart continues to beat every day, and I owe it to a heartwarming story named, My Heart and other Black