Malnourished
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma -- which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary,” --Steve Jobs. Life is about changing yourself over and over again until you're happy, then changing yourself again because you're no longer happy -- and that's okay. Often, once you make a choice in life people will put you in boxes, shutting you away from all light, resulting in a misshapen, brittle, and weak mind and heart. The greatest nourishment …show more content…
Drama was a whole different palette of flavors I could experience. Here there wasn't the pressure that cheerleading gave, it was like the passion came naturally and from deep down. It was astonishing to me that I could do this or be that -- any way I wanted to come to people, they would accept me. Sure I was accepted in cheerleading, but they accepted who I thought I needed to be -- and that wasn't me. I remember my very first play, Annie, I felt like a small fish in a very large pond. I was 13 at the time and wanted to impress the people I looked up to, the upper class man. They seemed magnificent as I watched the high schoolers transform from the already admirable, lame high schoolers they were to the characters they had that I so very envied. I remembered that no matter what, I was going to be where they were, I wanted to be admirable and talented. I promised myself I was never going to give up on my one true dream at the time. I told myself I could be and do anything, although I didn't believe it, I still never gave up on my one hope as a small, unimportant seventh grader. From then on out my love only grew. My eyes swelled as I looked at my ever growing plate of opportunities in drama. My mouth began to water as I realized my dream was reachable, but there was one thing holding me back. Stealing my time from my passion, cheerleading was robbing me of my confectionaries and I didn't know how to …show more content…
I soon realized that I made a commitment to cheerleading and as much as I didn't like it, I was going to finish out this season. There is a fine line between quitting and changing, deciphering where the line is exactly drawn is difficult and confusing. You want to battle your heart, but how much do you push? How much is enough to validate that you've given what you don't want enough attention so that you can allow yourself to do what you love? I craved to be at drama constantly where all my friends were waiting for me everyday after school. I was a small child sitting before their birthday cake that was much too big for them to eat on their own. However, once I took a bite I realized my perfectly frosted delicacy that I craved so very much felt wrong to eat in front of my guests. It felt as if I had what I wanted, but I couldn't enjoy it because of I was supposed to also love cheerleading -- and I didn't. Each day drama saturated my life further with depth and love for life and people. I became self aware, living for myself, I was finally thinking for me and not for others. I realized I didn't need to have a “why” to not do something that the fact that I wasn't happy was enough. I learned the balance between maintaining my happiness and others’ and how I can enhance both and not have to teeter totter the changes my life for others around me or vise versa. To be selfless is
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma -- which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary,” --Steve Jobs. Life is about changing yourself over and over again until you're happy, then changing yourself again because you're no longer happy -- and that's okay. Often, once you make a choice in life people will put you in boxes, shutting you away from all light, resulting in a misshapen, brittle, and weak mind and heart. The greatest nourishment …show more content…
Drama was a whole different palette of flavors I could experience. Here there wasn't the pressure that cheerleading gave, it was like the passion came naturally and from deep down. It was astonishing to me that I could do this or be that -- any way I wanted to come to people, they would accept me. Sure I was accepted in cheerleading, but they accepted who I thought I needed to be -- and that wasn't me. I remember my very first play, Annie, I felt like a small fish in a very large pond. I was 13 at the time and wanted to impress the people I looked up to, the upper class man. They seemed magnificent as I watched the high schoolers transform from the already admirable, lame high schoolers they were to the characters they had that I so very envied. I remembered that no matter what, I was going to be where they were, I wanted to be admirable and talented. I promised myself I was never going to give up on my one true dream at the time. I told myself I could be and do anything, although I didn't believe it, I still never gave up on my one hope as a small, unimportant seventh grader. From then on out my love only grew. My eyes swelled as I looked at my ever growing plate of opportunities in drama. My mouth began to water as I realized my dream was reachable, but there was one thing holding me back. Stealing my time from my passion, cheerleading was robbing me of my confectionaries and I didn't know how to …show more content…
I soon realized that I made a commitment to cheerleading and as much as I didn't like it, I was going to finish out this season. There is a fine line between quitting and changing, deciphering where the line is exactly drawn is difficult and confusing. You want to battle your heart, but how much do you push? How much is enough to validate that you've given what you don't want enough attention so that you can allow yourself to do what you love? I craved to be at drama constantly where all my friends were waiting for me everyday after school. I was a small child sitting before their birthday cake that was much too big for them to eat on their own. However, once I took a bite I realized my perfectly frosted delicacy that I craved so very much felt wrong to eat in front of my guests. It felt as if I had what I wanted, but I couldn't enjoy it because of I was supposed to also love cheerleading -- and I didn't. Each day drama saturated my life further with depth and love for life and people. I became self aware, living for myself, I was finally thinking for me and not for others. I realized I didn't need to have a “why” to not do something that the fact that I wasn't happy was enough. I learned the balance between maintaining my happiness and others’ and how I can enhance both and not have to teeter totter the changes my life for others around me or vise versa. To be selfless is