The night is finally here; I remember being so enthusiastic I could barely sit. I remember shifting around as if I was a crime waiting to hear my sentence. I remember being so excited to hang out with you outside of school that my mom just wanted me to leave the house—that’s how annoying I was about what outfit I would wear and how I looked. I remember wearing my favorite pair of jeans with a normal white tee. “I could feel the weight of my necklace pressed up against my skin, not quite as heavy as the converse on my feet as I walked to open the door.”
I remember you texting me “I’m here,” and my face burning hot as if I were standing near an erupting volcano. As I walked toward your car, I remember feeling that it was a never-ending walk …show more content…
All of those days at school watching you park your grey BMW perfectly along the side of the road had not prepared me for the feeling I would get sitting inside of it, my body inches from yours on the cool, red leather seats. I remember thinking the world of you and sharing so much with you and letting you into the crazy world of Weronika completely.
Little did I know just six months later this would all be just taken away from me. A bandaid ripped right out of my heart —except you didn’t rip it off quickly to minimize the pain. You ripped the bandaid nice and slow, to ensure I felt every single skin cell ripping along with it. I wish I never cared as much as I did, but I cared a lot. I treated you as a priority while I was just an option to you. I was only an option—that kills me.
“I remember all of the laughs we shared outside my house, sitting in your car passing the time away. You meant the world to me, so much that when our friend passed by the house one day blaring sirens, I was so angry. He ruined a moment that was supposed to be ours. I didn’t want to share you, that’s how much you meant to me. I guess the feeling was never …show more content…
I remember walking with you on the beach and just hearing the sound of the waves and you next to me if truly felt like paradise. I remember telling myself this is a great start to an amazing summer. I couldn’t wait to spend it with you and making crazy memories I remember being so happy like a little kid in the candy store. I remember at dinner the way you would look and smile at me the adorable dimples you had on your face. Your smile was so contagious I would always blush like the color of a lobster. After dinner, when I get home I remember pinching myself and asking, “Is this real life?!” I left so lucky to have you, I felt those middle school butterflies in your stomach vibes. The next day at school I couldn’t wait to see. You would park your car next to mine in the parking lot and wait for me. As time went on I kept falling in love with you I didn’t know my fairytale ending would so soon. I never would have imagined the pain you would cause me. I ever thought you would affect so much. I feel like I carry a mountain of pain everyday on my shoulder because of you.
I hope one day you’ll realize the pain you caused me. I wish I wasn’t blindsided by all the misleading lies and we didn’t share all the things we’ve shared. I wish I could take away the pain I carry every day. You made it hard to trust anyone ever again. I shared all my love, tears, and dreams with you. It’s
I remember you texting me “I’m here,” and my face burning hot as if I were standing near an erupting volcano. As I walked toward your car, I remember feeling that it was a never-ending walk …show more content…
All of those days at school watching you park your grey BMW perfectly along the side of the road had not prepared me for the feeling I would get sitting inside of it, my body inches from yours on the cool, red leather seats. I remember thinking the world of you and sharing so much with you and letting you into the crazy world of Weronika completely.
Little did I know just six months later this would all be just taken away from me. A bandaid ripped right out of my heart —except you didn’t rip it off quickly to minimize the pain. You ripped the bandaid nice and slow, to ensure I felt every single skin cell ripping along with it. I wish I never cared as much as I did, but I cared a lot. I treated you as a priority while I was just an option to you. I was only an option—that kills me.
“I remember all of the laughs we shared outside my house, sitting in your car passing the time away. You meant the world to me, so much that when our friend passed by the house one day blaring sirens, I was so angry. He ruined a moment that was supposed to be ours. I didn’t want to share you, that’s how much you meant to me. I guess the feeling was never …show more content…
I remember walking with you on the beach and just hearing the sound of the waves and you next to me if truly felt like paradise. I remember telling myself this is a great start to an amazing summer. I couldn’t wait to spend it with you and making crazy memories I remember being so happy like a little kid in the candy store. I remember at dinner the way you would look and smile at me the adorable dimples you had on your face. Your smile was so contagious I would always blush like the color of a lobster. After dinner, when I get home I remember pinching myself and asking, “Is this real life?!” I left so lucky to have you, I felt those middle school butterflies in your stomach vibes. The next day at school I couldn’t wait to see. You would park your car next to mine in the parking lot and wait for me. As time went on I kept falling in love with you I didn’t know my fairytale ending would so soon. I never would have imagined the pain you would cause me. I ever thought you would affect so much. I feel like I carry a mountain of pain everyday on my shoulder because of you.
I hope one day you’ll realize the pain you caused me. I wish I wasn’t blindsided by all the misleading lies and we didn’t share all the things we’ve shared. I wish I could take away the pain I carry every day. You made it hard to trust anyone ever again. I shared all my love, tears, and dreams with you. It’s