Dan, I’ve wanted to write you for a long time, but I thought it was best I just leave you alone as I thought it was better that way. You’re not obligated to reply to this in anyway. The truth is I feel awkward and weird writing this, and for all I know you’re just going to ignore it , delete it, or mock me for it, but there really no other way for me to say all of this. But its October 21st 2015, the day Marty went to the future, and there’s a new Star Wars trailer so screw it. Also, it should be stated that I have not lost my mind. I wanted to start by saying that you were, in many ways, the best friend I ever had, and I am so so sorry I took advantage of that in all the ways I did, it was truly never my intention. I didn’t realize everything
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When you and I were walking around Cal, you told me how you had intended to use Cal as a way to start over fresh, and hinted towards not wanting Jeff and Me around for it. I realized then that I too was holding you back, and I didn’t want to ride your coat tails.I also didn’t want you to feel obligated to come back just to hang out with me because you felt bad. In a way what I did the rest of that weekend was, in my mind, our last hurrah, and I was convinced that I wasn’t going to see you again. In hindsight , maybe I did all the shit I did that weekend with the idea that it would either piss you off enough to not see me again or it would force you have to have to see me again. I just felt like, no matter how many times you told me, win, lose or draw, I was losing my best friend that …show more content…
The one thing I can’t get over is the guilt and responsibly I feel for the way our friendship ended. I just want you to know that I am truly sorry for everything that I did, and that none of it was done to hurt you man. I never ever had any ill will towards you. I should have written this years ago, but, honestly, I felt like the right thing to do was to just leave you alone and let you live your life like you wanted. I don’t expect you to forgive me, or want anything to do with me for that matter. Hell, I have a hard time forgiving myself. I just want to say thank you for everything you did for me and I hope that one day I can repay you for all of it. Your one of the best people I have ever known, and it is my deepest regret that I fucked everything up. I don’t think for a second that because I wrote this we get to be friends again, and go hang out at the mall or see Force Awakens. After everything, I wouldn’t blame you for wanting nothing to do with me. I just want you to know that I miss you a lot. I regret not being able to talk Game of Thrones with you, or seeing a movie we can debate. I can honestly say, I have defiantly fallen behind on music without you around. I want you to know that I did end up going to Cal in 2013, got straight A’s the entire time and I graduated last December with a bachelors in history. I
When you and I were walking around Cal, you told me how you had intended to use Cal as a way to start over fresh, and hinted towards not wanting Jeff and Me around for it. I realized then that I too was holding you back, and I didn’t want to ride your coat tails.I also didn’t want you to feel obligated to come back just to hang out with me because you felt bad. In a way what I did the rest of that weekend was, in my mind, our last hurrah, and I was convinced that I wasn’t going to see you again. In hindsight , maybe I did all the shit I did that weekend with the idea that it would either piss you off enough to not see me again or it would force you have to have to see me again. I just felt like, no matter how many times you told me, win, lose or draw, I was losing my best friend that …show more content…
The one thing I can’t get over is the guilt and responsibly I feel for the way our friendship ended. I just want you to know that I am truly sorry for everything that I did, and that none of it was done to hurt you man. I never ever had any ill will towards you. I should have written this years ago, but, honestly, I felt like the right thing to do was to just leave you alone and let you live your life like you wanted. I don’t expect you to forgive me, or want anything to do with me for that matter. Hell, I have a hard time forgiving myself. I just want to say thank you for everything you did for me and I hope that one day I can repay you for all of it. Your one of the best people I have ever known, and it is my deepest regret that I fucked everything up. I don’t think for a second that because I wrote this we get to be friends again, and go hang out at the mall or see Force Awakens. After everything, I wouldn’t blame you for wanting nothing to do with me. I just want you to know that I miss you a lot. I regret not being able to talk Game of Thrones with you, or seeing a movie we can debate. I can honestly say, I have defiantly fallen behind on music without you around. I want you to know that I did end up going to Cal in 2013, got straight A’s the entire time and I graduated last December with a bachelors in history. I