It has been quite some time since the last time I posted a blog. It wasn’t because I did not have anything to say, it was because I did not know how to say. Over the past eight months I became lost. So lost in fact, that I did not believe I would find my way back. About nine months ago I was going through a rough patch. It seemed that everything I tried to do failed. It seemed the more I tried the harder I failed. I have never been one to fail, and fail miserably. Life had dealt me a hand that I was not prepared for. In order to remedy this since of failure, I tried reading self-help books, meditation, and journaling. I continued with my prayer, church, and tithing hoping that God would make a way. I did all of this …show more content…
We go through things in life that can make or break us. In these times we either turn to our faith, or pray our way; or, we turn to ourselves and worry our way out. In the beginning I turned to the former. I said that I would pray my way through it, and for a little while I did. However, when God did not answer my prayer in the timely fashion that I thought he should, I grew impatient. Then I decided that I would turn to my own understanding and work my way through it. This was the biggest mistake that I could have made. I stopped praying, and though I still went to church, I always felt a sense of emptiness. I was experiencing this rough patch in life, and I felt I had no one to turn to. I was in a spiritual comma. I knew that I was not spiritually dead. I still believed and had faith in God, however I was not able to exercise that faith. I was able to hear about God working. However, I was not able to see him work or feel him working. Many say that when someone is in a comma they can hear, even though they cannot see or even feel. I spent about three months in that spiritual comma, until one day, as Iyanla Vanzant would say, my soul just opened …show more content…
God knew I had been faithfully, and he was simply preparing me for the blessings he had in store for me. I had to be stretched and strengthened. God has already blessed me abundantly, and I became complacent with receiving those blessings. He now wants to elevate me, and I have to be ready for all of the blessing that await me. When I realized this, I felt like I had lost a million pounds that had been weighing me down. This relieve was me awakening from my spiritual comma. I no longer had to carry around the dead weight of my spirit. It was indeed alive and well. After, I came to conclusion, it still wasn’t easy. I had to relearn how to pray, and pray effectively. I had to start mediating again. I had to exercise my faith, and know that god has a plan for me, and trust in that plan. Everyday has not been easy, there are somedays that I lose my way, and I think God has forgotten about me. There are other days where I am spiritually lazy, and I do not want to put in the work. However, in those times I turn to my tool of prayer, and pray until I feel a