She also began receiving treatment and she would also go through chemo and radiation. When she went through chemo and radiation she began to look pale and weak. She would have her good days when she would be up walking around, laughing, smiling, and cleaning. Then, she would have her bad days where she would lay in bed and not get out for days. But, she always had a smile on her face no matter what. When she was admitted to the hospital and the doctors told is it wasn’t looking to well. She was in ICU for about a month, until she finally got well. Then they put her in hospice care so that she could be at peace and be comfortable as well. Every day when I got off of work, I would go and visit her and she would hold my hand and tell me that she was tired. I would smile and say “you are going to be ok lady.” Some days she didn’t know who I was but, she would still talk to me as if she …show more content…
This feeling of emptiness and helplessness without the closest person never leaves you. I think the idea of her dying made me sadder than any understanding of what it would actually mean to not have her around. She died three days before I left for college. I was upset, but I was relieved that she wasn’t suffering or in any more pain, she died at peace. The day she died my mother called to check on me and I asked her out was my aunt doing she said, “She’s fine.” We hung and she called tight back and said “I can’t lie to you, she just took her last breathe.” I dropped the phone and started to cry. I went over to see her one last time. I held her hand and kissed her cheek. I watched as they pronounced her dead and carried her cold lifeless body out of the door. I never thought I would have to watch a mortician carry a loved one out right in front of my