I’m unafraid to say that I love him deeply. But I would also be lying if said that I haven’t felt fear of “I’ve been wasting my time because he’s going to leave me eventually.” But at the same time, I’m also going to die eventually so does it really matter? Maybe ESP doesn’t exist and that hot September day when I first met him was some sort of fluke. My brain created false memories once I thought back on it months later. And maybe it was. At that moment, I didn’t gather that he was the eleventh out of thirteen children, or that he would eventually get accepted into Michigan State University only nine days after sending in his application, or anything about his sister Ana, who practically raised him. Nothing told me about how he would nervously make up an excuse to hold my hand on our first date or about our first kiss in a mall food court a few months later. I didn’t know how much he loves the saxophone, or even that his name was Sam! I learned nothing remotely significant about him that day. All I knew is that he would be important to me and that is good
I’m unafraid to say that I love him deeply. But I would also be lying if said that I haven’t felt fear of “I’ve been wasting my time because he’s going to leave me eventually.” But at the same time, I’m also going to die eventually so does it really matter? Maybe ESP doesn’t exist and that hot September day when I first met him was some sort of fluke. My brain created false memories once I thought back on it months later. And maybe it was. At that moment, I didn’t gather that he was the eleventh out of thirteen children, or that he would eventually get accepted into Michigan State University only nine days after sending in his application, or anything about his sister Ana, who practically raised him. Nothing told me about how he would nervously make up an excuse to hold my hand on our first date or about our first kiss in a mall food court a few months later. I didn’t know how much he loves the saxophone, or even that his name was Sam! I learned nothing remotely significant about him that day. All I knew is that he would be important to me and that is good