The fight with her husband and him kicking her out of the house that August night lead to her epiphany about her life; “She hurried out of the side to the front, where she could stand as if in an immense gulf of white light, the moon streaming high in face of her, the moonlight standing up from the hills in front, filling the valley where the Bottoms crouched, almost blindingly. there, panting and half weeping in reaction from the stress, she murmured to herself over and over again: ‘The nuisance! The nuisance!’ She became aware of herself.” Her state of mind has changed to a state of clarity and …show more content…
“Expect for sight feeling of sickness, and her consciousness in the child, herself melting out like the scent into the shiny, pale air. After a time the child, to, melted with her in the mixing pot of moonlight, and she rested with the hills and lilies and houses all swam in a kind of swoon.” In the end, Gertrude has found acceptance of her martial flaw, alcoholic husband and life, in this quote, “Mrs. Morel knew him too well to look at him. As she unfastened her brooch, she smiled faintly to see her face all smeared with the yellow dust of lilies. She brushed it off, and at last lay down. For some time her mind continued snapping in jetting sparks, but she was asleep before her husband awoke from the first sleep of his drunkenness.” We as the readers start to understand how the deep bonded relationship between a mother and a son has morphed into one while the marital bond between husband and wife was lost. Sons and lovers is about the life of Paul Morel, the first chapter gave insight into his mother’s struggles and the pain she truly went through. His father’s deceit has caused his mother’s suffering. The Morel family went through devastating events because of their father’s drinking, his lack of responsibility, and neglectfulness towards Gertrude. Throughout the course of the first chapter Gertrude evolved into the mother whom Paul loves so