When John finally committed to ending his life and no longer had a will strong enough to live he drank cyanide as the way to end it all. In his choice to end everything he could have chosen a quicker or less painful way or he could have gotten help and not chosen to make the decisions that he did. This is was makes his suicide so violent on top of the fact that he killed himself. John also made poor decisions based on what he had his friends do to him. He requested his friends, or acquaintances to harm him physically because he found pleasure in it, a temporary release from the pain that he had been experiencing. Rather than making these decisions that could have pushed John to the edge when they were taken away, he could have seen a doctor about everything that was bothering
When John finally committed to ending his life and no longer had a will strong enough to live he drank cyanide as the way to end it all. In his choice to end everything he could have chosen a quicker or less painful way or he could have gotten help and not chosen to make the decisions that he did. This is was makes his suicide so violent on top of the fact that he killed himself. John also made poor decisions based on what he had his friends do to him. He requested his friends, or acquaintances to harm him physically because he found pleasure in it, a temporary release from the pain that he had been experiencing. Rather than making these decisions that could have pushed John to the edge when they were taken away, he could have seen a doctor about everything that was bothering