Social Anxiety Essay

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Growing up with social anxiety has always been something that has defined me. It was something I never thought I would be able to get through. I was wrong. With the help of my best friend and my boyfriend I’ve been able to do things I never imagined I could do. I couldn 't have made this transition without them coaching me every step of the way.
One of the biggest problems with having social anxiety is that you always feel as is you 're being judged or criticized. I hated going out and leaving the house, I always worried about how I looked in the eyes of other people or if they were judging me because of what I had on. Some days I would even skip school because I feared that people would harshly judge me for what I looked like that day. I always
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The only time I would leave the house besides for school was when I hung out with Sho. He had invited me out to the mall and while we were there he decided that we should get Chinese food from Panda Express. My social anxiety made it almost impossible for me to order my food on my own. My parents never seemed to understand that and they would tease me about how I was to old for them to still order my food and that I should be ordering mown food. I constantly reminded that only babies need their parents to order their food for them. This made it really hard for me to admit to Sho what was going on. I tried so hard to change his mind and get myself out of that situation. I didn 't know how to tell him that I couldn 't order my own food. I know that sounds silly but I couldn’t, I was terrified of talking to strangers even if it was only a few words for a few seconds. Sho knew me way to well and knew that something was up. When he finally convinced me to admit what was going on he didn 't laugh or make jokes about how childish I must have sounded. He looked at me and said “Its okay, I understand. Just tell me what you want and I’ll order it for you.” As little as this may seem it made a worlds difference to …show more content…
I’ve never been one of those people who is comfortable in their own skin. I went though eating disorders and self esteem issues. Once I met my boyfriend some of that changed. I was afraid things wouldn 't work out because I needed constant reassurance that he liked me and that I was the only person he was interested in. I don 't understand how but that never seemed to be a problem for him. He was always telling how beautiful I looked and after a while I started to feel like I was. It’s rare to find a guy that makes you feel like a princess. I have never met someone sweeter or kinder than he is. I’m still self conscience and probably always will be but I am more comfortable with who I am thanks to him. I am extremely lucky to have someone who cares about me the way he

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