As I began this assignment, I found it difficult to recognize when I was having negative thoughts. I decided to track my thoughts over the course of spring break. I began recording my thoughts as spring break began at Fort Stewart in Georgia. I tracked my thoughts as the week continued.
As I began to track my thoughts, I did not notice any pattern of when they occurred. However, most of the thoughts I did track occurred when I visited Fort Stewart in Georgia over spring break. I went to post to visit my boyfriend who is stationed there. While there the thoughts: “I am an awful person for thinking this way,” “I do not belong here,” and “This girl must think I am stupid,” all occurred. The main day I was there, I met a wife of one of the men …show more content…
Right now, the team is preparing for the National Cheerleading Association’s Collegiate Cheerleading Competition that happens in April in Daytona. Currently there are only three weeks till we leave for the competition and the tension is starting to run high. Since we came back from break, I have been struggling to gain the confidence to do two tricks that are in the routine. The first trick is a connected trick called a cartwheel backhandspring. Since I began my cheerleading career I have always struggled with connecting tricks and having two in the routine has really dwindled my confidence. Before break began, I finally accomplished my cartwheel backhandspring. It was an awesome moment however I knew I still had to conquer the toe-touch backhandspring that was coming. “Just because I did this cartwheel backhandspring does not mean I will succeed at my other tricks,” kept running through my mind. I knew I needed to stop this type of thinking as quickly as possible or all of my confidence would be gone. I told myself that I finally conquered a trick that scared me, I know I can find the confidence to achieve this toe-touch backhandspring that was coming. Until I finally conquer the toe-touch backhandspring I continually tell myself that, “I am not good enough for this team.” I beat myself down and feel as though I am failing my teammates and all the hard work they have put into the routine. Reminding myself to think differently is a struggle. I try to think of the accomplishments I have had as a collegiate cheerleader and use those positive experience to remind myself that I am good enough for the
As I began to track my thoughts, I did not notice any pattern of when they occurred. However, most of the thoughts I did track occurred when I visited Fort Stewart in Georgia over spring break. I went to post to visit my boyfriend who is stationed there. While there the thoughts: “I am an awful person for thinking this way,” “I do not belong here,” and “This girl must think I am stupid,” all occurred. The main day I was there, I met a wife of one of the men …show more content…
Right now, the team is preparing for the National Cheerleading Association’s Collegiate Cheerleading Competition that happens in April in Daytona. Currently there are only three weeks till we leave for the competition and the tension is starting to run high. Since we came back from break, I have been struggling to gain the confidence to do two tricks that are in the routine. The first trick is a connected trick called a cartwheel backhandspring. Since I began my cheerleading career I have always struggled with connecting tricks and having two in the routine has really dwindled my confidence. Before break began, I finally accomplished my cartwheel backhandspring. It was an awesome moment however I knew I still had to conquer the toe-touch backhandspring that was coming. “Just because I did this cartwheel backhandspring does not mean I will succeed at my other tricks,” kept running through my mind. I knew I needed to stop this type of thinking as quickly as possible or all of my confidence would be gone. I told myself that I finally conquered a trick that scared me, I know I can find the confidence to achieve this toe-touch backhandspring that was coming. Until I finally conquer the toe-touch backhandspring I continually tell myself that, “I am not good enough for this team.” I beat myself down and feel as though I am failing my teammates and all the hard work they have put into the routine. Reminding myself to think differently is a struggle. I try to think of the accomplishments I have had as a collegiate cheerleader and use those positive experience to remind myself that I am good enough for the