He deserved some sort of explanation, they did love him, but the words weren’t coming. They had been thinking about this moment almost every night for a year, when they weren’t black out drunk, imagining meeting Castiel again. It had made their heart ache, but it had also kept them going some nights. “When I came back to myself after the Leviathan…everything was confusing. I tried to explain before I left, but I really didn’t understand myself…” Maison started and stopped, trying to get the words out. “Now I do a bit. I saw a side of myself, found a part of myself, that scared me. Nothing that anyone could say or do would make me feel better about that darkness. Over the past year I’ve come to understand it a bit better. It still scares the hell out of me, but I can harness now and use it to make myself better.” “Have you been alone this whole time?” Castiel asks and Maison thinks they see a flicker of something other than pain, jealousy perhaps, or
He deserved some sort of explanation, they did love him, but the words weren’t coming. They had been thinking about this moment almost every night for a year, when they weren’t black out drunk, imagining meeting Castiel again. It had made their heart ache, but it had also kept them going some nights. “When I came back to myself after the Leviathan…everything was confusing. I tried to explain before I left, but I really didn’t understand myself…” Maison started and stopped, trying to get the words out. “Now I do a bit. I saw a side of myself, found a part of myself, that scared me. Nothing that anyone could say or do would make me feel better about that darkness. Over the past year I’ve come to understand it a bit better. It still scares the hell out of me, but I can harness now and use it to make myself better.” “Have you been alone this whole time?” Castiel asks and Maison thinks they see a flicker of something other than pain, jealousy perhaps, or