Jackson - .Session1.Journal
The event that I would like to discuss, has taken place very recently. I was facing the possibility of losing my position where I work due to lack of education. Now this wasn’t a precursor to accepting the position, it is just an avenue which the company has selected to take to better equip themselves for future ventures, regardless of the effect to those without a degree.
Like anyone, I panicked, I was frightened, and I worried how I was going to meet my bills. The worst came to mind, that I would lose everything I’ve worked so hard to obtain.
At my age, people should be set and saving for retirement. I wasn’t prepared for this new catastrophic event that could soak up any type of retirement I had very quickly.
Needless to say, my spirit and …show more content…
Once my panic had sub-sided slightly, and I could think somewhat clearly, I realized that
I am not in control. No matter what I do, how I prepare, ultimately this situation was out of my hands. I knew I had no influence on the final decision of the leadership in my company. I did however, challenge my manager. I proposed to him that I am worth keeping, that I can and already do the work, and already fulfill the position of a degreed person. I proposed that by Labor Day I will have proven on every aspect of his expectations that I am more than capable to deliver what is needed.
All the while these conversations were taken place with my manager, what was really going on behind the scenes was a revelation between God and myself. I laid everything out before Him. As I mentioned before, I had no control. It was all in His hands to care
for. More times than not, I get in the way and believe it’s all my shoulders to carry. I forget to put Him first and take everyday life to Him. My biggest fault is being very independent. However, these cares and challenges are not mine to solve or worry about. We are instructed to take our worries and problems to Him and He will work it
The event that I would like to discuss, has taken place very recently. I was facing the possibility of losing my position where I work due to lack of education. Now this wasn’t a precursor to accepting the position, it is just an avenue which the company has selected to take to better equip themselves for future ventures, regardless of the effect to those without a degree.
Like anyone, I panicked, I was frightened, and I worried how I was going to meet my bills. The worst came to mind, that I would lose everything I’ve worked so hard to obtain.
At my age, people should be set and saving for retirement. I wasn’t prepared for this new catastrophic event that could soak up any type of retirement I had very quickly.
Needless to say, my spirit and …show more content…
Once my panic had sub-sided slightly, and I could think somewhat clearly, I realized that
I am not in control. No matter what I do, how I prepare, ultimately this situation was out of my hands. I knew I had no influence on the final decision of the leadership in my company. I did however, challenge my manager. I proposed to him that I am worth keeping, that I can and already do the work, and already fulfill the position of a degreed person. I proposed that by Labor Day I will have proven on every aspect of his expectations that I am more than capable to deliver what is needed.
All the while these conversations were taken place with my manager, what was really going on behind the scenes was a revelation between God and myself. I laid everything out before Him. As I mentioned before, I had no control. It was all in His hands to care
for. More times than not, I get in the way and believe it’s all my shoulders to carry. I forget to put Him first and take everyday life to Him. My biggest fault is being very independent. However, these cares and challenges are not mine to solve or worry about. We are instructed to take our worries and problems to Him and He will work it