This pattern elucidates my relationship to food, because I expect to feel ‘good’ after eating something that I consider ‘good’.
Another theme that emerged is my use of ‘excuses’ for eating food heavy in carbohydrates or fats, namely having company, or that the food preceded or followed a night of drinking alcohol on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. I noted on Friday that a meal of beans and beetroot salad with a heavy dressing was “legitimate” because I was eating with a friend, despite the fact that a dinner of a bean and beetroot salad is not particularly heavy or something that others would necessarily consider a ‘meal’.
Furthermore, having company while eating contributed to my perception of the food as a ‘proper meal’, such as on Friday and Monday, even if the food itself did not constitute anything more substantial than what I would have when eating