Self-Doubt About Myself

“Self doubt” is something like myself and others, have experience in our life. In my early childhood, I remember I love to make art, to this day I still do. I had what a little kid had to make little art pieces; markers, watercolor, crayons, color pencils, and a lot of cheap dollar store office supplies. I had a big imagination as a child and I drew what I thought were my pride and joy, and at that age I knew I couldn’t do art for my future and I thought drawing won’t make a huge impact in my life, but little did I know that in my high school years did I realise that my own art that I created had created myself. At a young age I lived in a small cul de sac in Portland, Oregon. In my childhood I had little care in the world, I watched cartoons, …show more content…
What felt worse was that I was already comparing myself to others. Betrayal was what it was, it was like someone took a part of my soul and was torturing it making it harder to breath. I couldn’t even look at my drawings for a long time thinking about all those times I practiced were all for nothing and I spent some months not drawing for fun and only for project based assignments. I was miserable and very moody that I would spend my times inside doing absolutely nothing, although I did do drawings I didn’t feel the surge of excitement that came with them and I end up beating myself more as I started to criticize myself and hating my art. My parents didn’t know much about this since they sort of didn’t like how I was drawing constantly in the first place and they told me repeatedly to study and work, it did distract me a little from drawing but I felt even more empty with no purpose what so ever and I needed something to fill it in. For a thirteen year old I didn’t feel at all happy and everything felt out of tune, I thirst for creativity, but none came to me and I felt that I might not find my passion again. It was until I was scrolling through Youtube did I feel that there was still a bit of light at the end of the