Reflection On Self-Esteem Assessment

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I’m fully surprised by the contradiction discovered and wonder if I could have been closer to reaching my goals, by better understanding the ‘why’ behind some of my answers on the Self-Esteem Assessment. Although, I truly believe that the results of this assessment, and my answers, would be completely different if taken ten years ago. This begs the age old question of “can a tiger change its stripes?” For example, question number 8 (What aspects of those jobs did I enjoy?), references the jobs held since I was 16. I really enjoyed working with people, yet on question number 16, I realized that my preference leans toward jobs where I work alone at a percentage of 40/60. While I am certainly not anything near what could be considered …show more content…
I often here how I may get further up the ladder and inspire confidence in others if I first show self-assurance. I often second guess my abilities to accomplish a job or my skills to finish a project at or above the required standards. Often, this will stop me from applying for certain positions. I almost turned down the opportunity to get my current position. I only applied after others encouraged me to do so. When asked why they thought I could do the job, my motivators usually cited my past accomplishments and tasks. Once I did apply and was selected for the interview, my confidence managed to return as it often does when put in certain positions. Still, I sometimes question myself when given more responsibilities. I somehow manage to succeed but others have encouraged me along the way. It’s ironic how others believe in me more sometimes than I do in myself. It is that same belief that I want to instill in others. Yes, the very trait I want to mentor and develop in others is the trait or critique received from those I work with and around. I believe that if I had more self-assurance, I may have taken a different, more direct route to my goal by finishing my degree sooner and going directly into the field in which I hope to succeed …show more content…
In order to help others, I realize, I must help myself. I would consider myself to be a high achieving employee in my current position. This is reflected in my annual appraisals and assessments conducted by my superiors. This is reflective of the self-assessment completed because in order to achieve this level of success, I would have to consistently perform at a level, as I indicated, that produced thorough, and trustworthy work. My job in part requires a lot of analyzing of ideas, or research. Since there is often no wrong or right answer with this, it is very important that the leadership trust that I have applied much thought during my analysis process. I have a high level of self-esteem as it relates to my overall self. It only seems to wean a little when I have very specific tasks to complete that will be a total reflection of my own thoughts and ideas versus actual facts. The Information is easy to produce, however, my mind can’t help but wonder if my way of thinking will be in line with the way others think. One fact that I seem to always forget is that, perhaps this very point is the reason why I do my job so well. It’s because I do not think like most and try to take an out of the box approach to assignments, that my work is deemed as high achieving. When I learn to not have this type of thinking, I can see myself achieving at an even higher rate than I already

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