Essay about Review on Confessions of a Mask
Before he reaches puberty, the narrator is oblivious to the differences between his peers and himself he simply assumes that everybody else is just …show more content…
His relationship with Sonoko, however, brings a turning point to his life. As he becomes more acquainted with Sonoko, he begins to realize that "maybe I am becoming the sort of person who is incapable of acting contrary to his true nature, and maybe I do really love her." As he understands that his feeling has less to do with social conformity than with his honest pure feelings, he begins to hope for a possibility of a transition. When the narrator thinks of borrowing a private room in a hotel to sleep with her, he hopes that "Sure then, surely at that time I would be able to do it. Surely normality would burst into flames within me like a divine revelation. Surely I would be reborn as a different person ." He wishes that he could move out from the shame of his imperfection as a man.
Although hope comes to its climax when he decides to kiss Sonoko, his kiss with the girl does not bring him the transition he seeks for. His kiss with her does not evoke any sense of carnal desire inside him. There is no stimulation. He realizes