During life unexpected moments, we tend to question the reason of our fate. We ask ourselves “Why” that unforgettable moment occurred, which most of the time we do not know the answer . We seek to blame others, blame ourselves, reach put to a supernatural or divine power and still no clear answer. As a result of such uncertainty we develop an ambivalence that disrupts our relationship and beliefs. In the book “Bless Me Ultima” by Rudolfo Anaya, Antonio blossoms a religious ambivalence through his experiences of lost in such early stages of his life. Initially in the book, Antonio’s parents cause a crack into his conscious by planting their dreams into him and highly expecting them to once flourish and become a reality. In one hand Maria,
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Later Narciso stumbles upon Tenorio and they start brawling, Antonio without disclosing his presence he witnesses the fight. Tenorio pulls out a gun and shoots Narciso. Tenorio vanishes through the blizzard. Antonio in verge of experiencing another death he says the Act of Contrition to Narciso taking in the sins that he has committed. Now two deaths on top of him, Antonio does not understand why good dies and the evil survives. That dilemma is evident in his dreams where he seeks justice for Narciso. In page 173 “ Forgive Narciso! I cried to God. I will, the terrible Voice responded, if you also ask me to forgive Tenorio.” In order for Narciso to be forgiven for all his sins, Antonio himself has to forgive Tenorio. Antonio finds himself disagreeing with God, someone he will have to worship for the rest of his life if he carries out his mothers dreams of becoming a priest. This dream feeds into his religious ambivalence and implements new set of unanswered questions that create a bigger gap between his religious belief and …show more content…
Antonio shows his pity toward Florence by attempting to connect with him thru a different angle, the golden carp. He reaches the side where a gang of boys swum and Florence was there dead. Another death witnessed by the protagonist, with no emotions and just confusion; “ The lonely river was a sad place to be when one is a small boy who has just seen a friend die. And it grew sadder when the bells of the church began to toll, and the afternoon shadows lengthen”. The river that represents Antonio soul, the initially stained river by the unjustified death of Lupito and Narciso and the agonizing church bells that just rang to remind Antonio of all the unanswered question he will always
Later Narciso stumbles upon Tenorio and they start brawling, Antonio without disclosing his presence he witnesses the fight. Tenorio pulls out a gun and shoots Narciso. Tenorio vanishes through the blizzard. Antonio in verge of experiencing another death he says the Act of Contrition to Narciso taking in the sins that he has committed. Now two deaths on top of him, Antonio does not understand why good dies and the evil survives. That dilemma is evident in his dreams where he seeks justice for Narciso. In page 173 “ Forgive Narciso! I cried to God. I will, the terrible Voice responded, if you also ask me to forgive Tenorio.” In order for Narciso to be forgiven for all his sins, Antonio himself has to forgive Tenorio. Antonio finds himself disagreeing with God, someone he will have to worship for the rest of his life if he carries out his mothers dreams of becoming a priest. This dream feeds into his religious ambivalence and implements new set of unanswered questions that create a bigger gap between his religious belief and …show more content…
Antonio shows his pity toward Florence by attempting to connect with him thru a different angle, the golden carp. He reaches the side where a gang of boys swum and Florence was there dead. Another death witnessed by the protagonist, with no emotions and just confusion; “ The lonely river was a sad place to be when one is a small boy who has just seen a friend die. And it grew sadder when the bells of the church began to toll, and the afternoon shadows lengthen”. The river that represents Antonio soul, the initially stained river by the unjustified death of Lupito and Narciso and the agonizing church bells that just rang to remind Antonio of all the unanswered question he will always