After almost half a year from the incident, the memory of my irresponsible behavior of drug use on that Friday night still comes up in my mind constantly like a nightmare, reminding me what I could have done negatively to myself, my family, and even the UCSD community with one of the worst decisions in my life. Although I was extremely fortunate that my decision did not cause any severe aftermath eventually, it was absolutely a remarkable and scary lesson that I will always remember to self-reflect and correct my future behaviors. On that night, I was smoking marijuana at first, then consumed LSD after marijuana came in effect; I thought stacking can somehow enhance the joy at the time. That may be true. Nevertheless, I learned at the meeting
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The fear of completely ruining my life as I was sent into the ER made me think deeply and revise my college experience at the time. I came to college for education, not to become a possible drug addict who can’t study at all. Furthermore, it would have been an extra burden to my family if something irreversible happened to me since my father is already having cancer, which was definitely a financial burden to my family. Until now, I still haven’t told my parents about what happened since I don’t want to disappoint them or worsen my father’s situation by any chance. After my first year in college, I’ve changed a lot in order to compensate for my guilt. My regret of doing so has been motivating me by then, it made me focus and concern more on my school work and education instead of mainly thinking about having fun when I was severely sunk in depression last year. I’m managing my time and tasks more wisely as a result now, and feeling that I am able to perform a lot better academically this quarter in comparison to last year. When I got back home in Taiwan last summer, my parents also noticed my changes when I took responsibility doing most of the chores, cooking, taking my father to hospital, and taking care of him when he was hospitalized. My parents were really satisfied and surprised that I had grown so much after my first year of college, as I was ineffably ashamed that I had not acquired this mindset
The fear of completely ruining my life as I was sent into the ER made me think deeply and revise my college experience at the time. I came to college for education, not to become a possible drug addict who can’t study at all. Furthermore, it would have been an extra burden to my family if something irreversible happened to me since my father is already having cancer, which was definitely a financial burden to my family. Until now, I still haven’t told my parents about what happened since I don’t want to disappoint them or worsen my father’s situation by any chance. After my first year in college, I’ve changed a lot in order to compensate for my guilt. My regret of doing so has been motivating me by then, it made me focus and concern more on my school work and education instead of mainly thinking about having fun when I was severely sunk in depression last year. I’m managing my time and tasks more wisely as a result now, and feeling that I am able to perform a lot better academically this quarter in comparison to last year. When I got back home in Taiwan last summer, my parents also noticed my changes when I took responsibility doing most of the chores, cooking, taking my father to hospital, and taking care of him when he was hospitalized. My parents were really satisfied and surprised that I had grown so much after my first year of college, as I was ineffably ashamed that I had not acquired this mindset