Reflective Essay: How Would I Receive An A?

Honestly, I am not a very motivated person. I tend to try hard in school for the sole purpose of receiving an A. I never had thought of learning as an activity, but rather a priority. A priority that exists once again, for the purpose of getting an A. In my head, if I received an A, I would feel secure and my life would be able to move along smoothly. Receive a B, and my whole world would stop. Sadly, it seemed almost impossible for me to receive even close to a B when it came to writing. I had formerly believed that my writing skills were average, but I soon came to the realization that I did not even come close to what I had thought when I was said to have needed supplementary classes. At that point, I was ashamed of my writing. I was ashamed that all that I could amount to was a measly C. Was I really that incompetent? I had tried my best to improve and even took on the new concept of supplementary classes, but …show more content…
I had given up on the notion that I could even become an average writer. I was preparing myself to endure the constant parent calls home and one on one conferences with my teacher concerning my writing. I had lost all my incentive to improve. I would obviously just continue regressing. I would rather maintain where I was then retrogress. I finally came to the decision to watch my friends improve and win awards for their great achievements while I sat back stoically. Finally, while writing a paper that for some reason I could not develop, I grew furious. I stood up, ripped my paper to shreds and screamed out of frustration. What had I done to deserve this? Why was it such an infeasible endeavor for me to receive an A? I had done nothing, but try to improve and for some incomprehensible reason, I was regressing! Regressing! I could not understand it! Consequently, I was lectured by mother to quiet down and finish my work, but I was determined this time. I would not hand in anything less than my best