Abuse Definition

I never really knew what the true definition of abuse was. According to the dictionary, abuse is the improper or excessive use or treatment. I learned that abuse can be both mentally obtained and psychically. Honestly I can say that at first I did not know that there was a fine line between abuse and discipline. I cannot say that any of it was discipline because one is disciplined when they have done wrong. However, I have also learned that one can get abused for no reason. I will not pretend that I did not know that it was wrong. I have always known right from wrong. I like to believe that I allowed myself to endure it for two reasons, the first being fear and the second being love. Fear of being sent to a place much worse and the want and need of her love. Therefore, I stayed keeping silent about the pain and sorrow I was subjected to for over 13 years. Hiding it all behind a synthetic smile or two.
No longer do I have anger towards her. As much as I wanted to hate her forever I could not. I found it impossible to be upset with her. She …show more content…
I had always been an active person so, although my mother was still abusive towards me, I was rarely ever home to receive much abuse. Nonetheless, when I was home I did have to face it. The biggest turning point was the summer of my 16th year. By then I had faced way more pain then I believe any person should face. That summer was different than any before. I was tired of being hurt by the one person in the world who should never hurt me. One night she punched me and instead of allowing it to happen I hit back. Now I know that you should never hit your parents but that night I felt that she did not have the right to be called a mother. I tried to leave that night. She of course could not let it be that simple, blocking my way she said, “The only way you leaving this house is if your daddy comes to get you and we both know he don’t want your ass.” Horrible