SOUL SEARCHING
Harris
Session 1: Reflection
First let me tell you a little about myself. I grow in a low housing community; we would call that the projects. My great Grandmother raised me until her passing, I was about 10 years old.So you want to know why my great grandmother raised me? I’m glad you ask because I ask myself the same question at a very early age. I’m going to make this short and sweet. As I meant my great Grandmother died around my 10th year, so I had to find this information out earlier in life, not that I ask anyone, but I’ve always been one for sitting around in the other room listening, I’m still that way today, I’m a great listener. My mom was 13 years old when she got pregnant with me, she was just a kid herself, so
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I knew I wasn’t going to get any information about my dad I just sitting around waiting for someone to speaking his name, so I ask.Nana! (my great
Grandmothers name) when will I see my dad, she never turned and
looked at me. All she said; that will never happen. Just something about that didn’t set right with me. Either he was dead, or in jail, but this feeling within me I knew dead he wasn’t. Yes, I met him in my 12th year of life.
By then my great Grandmother had passed on, I was living with my Mom, so now new journeys of life would begin to take place. My mom was still young, raising four kids at the age of 28. She drank a lot, always sad to me. Why she look so sad all the time. Why was she always mean, yelling, making me feel unloved? Life did that to her.
Yes I was going to find out what was her issues. Well short story, my
Mom was rapped at an earlier age, and that haunted her, now I understood her pain, but I also watched her the day she was set free from that pain. At a woman conferences, a lady shared her testimony how she was raped by a family member, my mom didn’t say a word, but I could tell by her body language and the expression on her face, as see …show more content…
How I understood my story by my the events of my Mom life journey. Someone would say, generation curses.
After a 17 year bad marriage, a marriage that made me feel like I was being punished by God for all my bad mistakes in life. I do believe we deserve to be punished for what we’ve done in life, but God a life sentence, yes I dated married men, which I later understood how wrong that was, so if this is an indication of the pain I caused someone for dating there husband then I can except the pain of my bad marriage. I flew all the way to Florida just to be counseled, I had a total of five counselor through my whole marriage, I wanted my marriage to work, I wanted my husband to love me, want me, respect me, NO I needed him to.I took me after the divorce to understand, my focus was all wrong, I needed God, that was all, I knew with all His help, he would of gave me that peace I needed to endure the bitterness, anger, hatred I was carrying, if I could of let some of that pain go, that I was carrying for so many years, I could of endured.
I’m here at CCU because of my life journey. What better class to take but Psychology, to understanding the human mind, and
Harris
Session 1: Reflection
First let me tell you a little about myself. I grow in a low housing community; we would call that the projects. My great Grandmother raised me until her passing, I was about 10 years old.So you want to know why my great grandmother raised me? I’m glad you ask because I ask myself the same question at a very early age. I’m going to make this short and sweet. As I meant my great Grandmother died around my 10th year, so I had to find this information out earlier in life, not that I ask anyone, but I’ve always been one for sitting around in the other room listening, I’m still that way today, I’m a great listener. My mom was 13 years old when she got pregnant with me, she was just a kid herself, so
my …show more content…
I knew I wasn’t going to get any information about my dad I just sitting around waiting for someone to speaking his name, so I ask.Nana! (my great
Grandmothers name) when will I see my dad, she never turned and
looked at me. All she said; that will never happen. Just something about that didn’t set right with me. Either he was dead, or in jail, but this feeling within me I knew dead he wasn’t. Yes, I met him in my 12th year of life.
By then my great Grandmother had passed on, I was living with my Mom, so now new journeys of life would begin to take place. My mom was still young, raising four kids at the age of 28. She drank a lot, always sad to me. Why she look so sad all the time. Why was she always mean, yelling, making me feel unloved? Life did that to her.
Yes I was going to find out what was her issues. Well short story, my
Mom was rapped at an earlier age, and that haunted her, now I understood her pain, but I also watched her the day she was set free from that pain. At a woman conferences, a lady shared her testimony how she was raped by a family member, my mom didn’t say a word, but I could tell by her body language and the expression on her face, as see …show more content…
How I understood my story by my the events of my Mom life journey. Someone would say, generation curses.
After a 17 year bad marriage, a marriage that made me feel like I was being punished by God for all my bad mistakes in life. I do believe we deserve to be punished for what we’ve done in life, but God a life sentence, yes I dated married men, which I later understood how wrong that was, so if this is an indication of the pain I caused someone for dating there husband then I can except the pain of my bad marriage. I flew all the way to Florida just to be counseled, I had a total of five counselor through my whole marriage, I wanted my marriage to work, I wanted my husband to love me, want me, respect me, NO I needed him to.I took me after the divorce to understand, my focus was all wrong, I needed God, that was all, I knew with all His help, he would of gave me that peace I needed to endure the bitterness, anger, hatred I was carrying, if I could of let some of that pain go, that I was carrying for so many years, I could of endured.
I’m here at CCU because of my life journey. What better class to take but Psychology, to understanding the human mind, and