I tried to tell her how I felt about her and that I would do anything to make the marriage work, but she was not interested. She said she was always angry with me and she didn 't want to be with me anymore. She turned down my requests to go to counseling. It was a very rough time for me. I talked to my pastors, both at my home church and my boss. They told me the same things in different ways. I had been bending myself to try to make her happy and it was never enough for her. Despite me showing how much I loved her she was not willing to work on it and it takes two to make a marriage work. I did not contest the divorce; I filed for it to make things easier for her. I want to make it clear that I am not intending this account to demonize her in any way. She was a major part of my life and this experience played a major part in my continuing faith formation. It taught me how much a church family can care for someone that is hurting. It reinforced how important my family is to me. It taught me that all of us have been hurt in some way that doesn 't show and that we all need to know that God loves …show more content…
Studying under the guidance of a professor will help form a solid theological foundation that will assist me in developing lessons and teaching my youth. Gaining a deeper understanding of scripture will help me to answer questions the youth ask, or give additional background if an answer is not available. This can lead to more in depth discussion with the youth and families about their faith. I have always been introspective and a theological education will help me discover myself in ways that I have not been able to do before. I feel as though a theological education is just as much about self-discovery as it is