With time constraints with well-meaning intentions, I find it difficult to follow all of them, even though I know that they are essential for a servant leader. Take for example; taking the time to be completely by myself, other than when I’m studying etc. I find it very challenging, especially these days. Although, I realize I have the need to do that to restore, and refresh, but I don’t. With full-time work, two classes, I don’t know whether I’m coming or going.
It’s been a while since I have connected with God, with life being busy, therefore, my lame reason I’m pressed for time as every second is precious to me to complete …show more content…
They leave me alone, for the most part as they are very much aware that I don’t have a moment to spare. In additions, they do a fair amount for me to support me in my goal. If anything, they remind me to stay on course with my plan. I feel at times I’m letting them down, but they all understand what it’s like, and don’t expect me to do any hosting for them until I’m successful in my purpose. I have put everything on hold for the time being, other than during my lunch break is when I try to connect with whomever I can, and that too if it’s absolutely necessary. The only thing I feel not supported with is when I let everyone know that I need honest feedback, as I have the desire to improve in certain aspects. However, I mostly get just the feel-good sentiments. In the contrary, when I try, to be honest with people they would rather be indignant as they are looking for me to play the jovial, which I feel at times may not be necessary as we all need to hear the truth about certain aspects of our lives, so we don’t get stagnant in continuing to do the wrong things. Blanchard et all state, “self-serving [thinkers] who will silence valuable feedback by killing the [provider]” (2016, p.117). This really defeats the purpose of sharing my knowledge with many who may not be receptive to honest observation and don’t view it as