I had plenty of amazing role models in the school, amazing teachers, etc. But, unfortunately even with all of that stuff, anxiety was still one of the biggest antagonists in my life. Constantly worrying that I would do something embarrassing, constantly feeling eyes on the back of my head as I walked in the halls. Constantly thinking I was a failure if I did something wrong. Unfortunately it was even worse when my two year relationship with a guy started to become a messy high school relationship. One that unfortunately, over half of the school knew about and was constantly whispering …show more content…
I would find my best friend, talk to her to get my mind of anything I wanted to forget about the day so far, get lunch and quickly go to my table. It seemed like a perfect plan, most of the time at least. All I had to do was stay until the end of the lunch period and then get swallowed up with the rather large crowd of people going to there classes. If I was lucky I would also have a friend or two around me. And once I got to my next class I usually found myself letting out a big breath as if I had been holding it all in that whole time.
After that my day was pretty easy. All I had to do was make sure I pay attention (which sometimes felt rather challenging), because you never knew when a teacher would call on your name to give an answer. Luckily though I was smart enough to figure out a pattern between most of my teachers regarding when, and how they choose someone to answer a question. Another thing was making sure I didn’t trip or run into someone when I was in the hallway, and lastly making sure I didn't forget anything in any of my classes (which compared to how forgetful I am, proved to be a pretty easy thing to