Youth group messages told me that when I contemplated suicide, it was the most selfish thing that a person could do, and that God would be disappointed that one of his children would throw away the life he gave her. Then, when I was diagnosed with ADHD, I faced a new struggle as I discovered that I needed to hide this fact from many of my Liberty University schoolmates. As one fellow student told me, “There’s no such thing as ADD. You have a discipline problem, and you need to fast, pray, and surrender it to God.” As I neared the end of my bachelor’s program, my pain was increased by a convocation message that emphasized, “You don’t have a depression problem, you have a faith problem. You need to rely on God more.” This statement and all the messages prior to it piled up like bricks in my emotional backpack, weighing me down in a perpetual feeling of guilt and inadequacy. I felt like I was drowning, and there was a crowd of people on the poolside shouting, “You can do it! You’re almost there! Just trust God!” This was my state when driving that ridge; I was out of strength, and wished someone would just reach in and hold me above
Youth group messages told me that when I contemplated suicide, it was the most selfish thing that a person could do, and that God would be disappointed that one of his children would throw away the life he gave her. Then, when I was diagnosed with ADHD, I faced a new struggle as I discovered that I needed to hide this fact from many of my Liberty University schoolmates. As one fellow student told me, “There’s no such thing as ADD. You have a discipline problem, and you need to fast, pray, and surrender it to God.” As I neared the end of my bachelor’s program, my pain was increased by a convocation message that emphasized, “You don’t have a depression problem, you have a faith problem. You need to rely on God more.” This statement and all the messages prior to it piled up like bricks in my emotional backpack, weighing me down in a perpetual feeling of guilt and inadequacy. I felt like I was drowning, and there was a crowd of people on the poolside shouting, “You can do it! You’re almost there! Just trust God!” This was my state when driving that ridge; I was out of strength, and wished someone would just reach in and hold me above