Personal Narrative: Where Does My Identity Lie

Where does my identity lie? My identity lies shaped within the continuous chorus and dazzling beats of music, where time seems to fly by and the listener is in a trace of beauty, elegance, rage, fun, happiness, etc. Everything I click and every thumbs up or down I make shapes me. As if I were a block of stone and the song are each a chisel and a hammer chipping away at me till they get their final product. From the time I was born music has been in my life but I have been blind to the way it has molded and shaped me until recently. Reflecting back on myself I can tell you at least three times music has shaped me. In 2009 my Mother was diagnosed with breast cancer, kind of a weird thought since she is a doctor. Her being OCD this was not good, I remember hearing her complain about how “dirty” she felt carrying around a tumor all the time she seemed more relieved than the rest of the family when the surgeons finally got that thing out. I also remember the nights she was under the knife and I was stuck at my aunt's house where the only thing I could do was sit, wait, pray, and repeat till the moon replaced the sun and slowly everybody retreated to their rooms. With no one to talk to and …show more content…
That night for the first time my eyes and ears were open. Not only to the music but everything around me, in music but as well in everyday life. I would pay attention to the background noises, something that I still do today. In music I can hear the most subtle of harmonies and notes, as if wanting for it to speak to me again and leave me in ruins. In everyday life, I now can eavesdrop on a conversation across the room. Don't get me wrong this didn't give me superpowers it just made me way more observant than before. This has also had an impact on my grades, I can listen more intently and write down the little things that seem foreign on pop quizzes because no one remembered to write them