What It Is Like to be Perfect
I’m perfect. Or at least I pretend to be. I have decent grades, a decent amount of activities, and a decent appearance, but who am I? Who is Kyel Towler? There is one thing I have learned about myself. I pretend as if I am on some sort of pedestal, which I am not. I am only just a dude, no better than any other dude.
Nobody ever told me to express how I truly feel until recently. I believed that I was better off not showing any emotions or love for the people I care for most. I didn’t even realize what I was doing was detrimental until my dad told me how he deals with his emotions. He told me what he what he was noticing about how my brothers and I dealt with ours. One of my brothers would withdraw, another would yell and scream like my dad, and I simply wouldn’t deal at all. My other brother, Bryson, would tell you the problem to your face and finally he told me.
“You just think you're better than everybody. You act like you’re perfect,” Bryson told me in an ensuing argument.
But then I thought about what he said, and the words still rang in my head. Better. Perfect. They haunt me because I do not want to …show more content…
I was so busy worrying about being perfect that I had not realized that trying to be perfect was my flaw, because that caused me to think that I am better than other individuals. I actually joined the Black Student Union (BSU) in my high school, and I brought up a point that African-Americans as a whole have been stigmatized into thinking that they are not able to take AP classes or Dual Enrollment classes. Then one of the sponsors of the BSU asked me, “Do you think you’re better than any of the people that take the standard classes?” I pretended to be humble and responded with humility, but inside I was dwelling over that assertion. In retrospect, perhaps I actually did think I was better than those students, or was trying to
I’m perfect. Or at least I pretend to be. I have decent grades, a decent amount of activities, and a decent appearance, but who am I? Who is Kyel Towler? There is one thing I have learned about myself. I pretend as if I am on some sort of pedestal, which I am not. I am only just a dude, no better than any other dude.
Nobody ever told me to express how I truly feel until recently. I believed that I was better off not showing any emotions or love for the people I care for most. I didn’t even realize what I was doing was detrimental until my dad told me how he deals with his emotions. He told me what he what he was noticing about how my brothers and I dealt with ours. One of my brothers would withdraw, another would yell and scream like my dad, and I simply wouldn’t deal at all. My other brother, Bryson, would tell you the problem to your face and finally he told me.
“You just think you're better than everybody. You act like you’re perfect,” Bryson told me in an ensuing argument.
But then I thought about what he said, and the words still rang in my head. Better. Perfect. They haunt me because I do not want to …show more content…
I was so busy worrying about being perfect that I had not realized that trying to be perfect was my flaw, because that caused me to think that I am better than other individuals. I actually joined the Black Student Union (BSU) in my high school, and I brought up a point that African-Americans as a whole have been stigmatized into thinking that they are not able to take AP classes or Dual Enrollment classes. Then one of the sponsors of the BSU asked me, “Do you think you’re better than any of the people that take the standard classes?” I pretended to be humble and responded with humility, but inside I was dwelling over that assertion. In retrospect, perhaps I actually did think I was better than those students, or was trying to