Hopeless now to regain my spot upon that stage, look into the radiating spotlight, and be apart of the machine that was a simple school performance. Until this very moment I could not quite comprehend how easily a broken cog in a big machine could be replaced. When you are 8 years of age and beginning to understand how systems are designed with a fail-safe, your perception of society is entirely changed. My undeveloped brain must have been doing a number on itself at that point in time. I now had to understand and accept the theory of replacement. All along this idea had been present in my mind. Being a fan of sports, I understood that when a player became injured and could not play they were substituted for a second string player who could temporarily fill their spot. For the first time I had found that more often than I was led to believe, a system dependant on a single sources contributions could effortlessly replace said sources if required. This is viewed by most as a source of relief, knowing that their failure to contribute to a system can be fixed by a temporary replacement. For me it became a way to manipulate systems of which I was not a fan, proving to be detrimental to my future success. I unfortunately at the early age of eight understood that dependency can be disregarded when a system has a way of completing a task without the inclusion of all sources. This meant that I would begin to ask …show more content…
Washington. In the same position as myself, I was accompanied by a friend by the name of Caleb. It was a moment in which I truly felt lost, atop a mountain, in the rain, being ravaged by the elements, at a time when the city sleeps. We walked out onto a manmade platform, hanging over the edge of the mountain, held in place by the immense weight anchoring it into the rock. I stood amongst the millions of people that belong to the city that I grew up in, and know everything about. Caleb stood there, and with a brief sigh said, “Who looked at the terrain of Pittsburgh and decided I think this a good place to build a city?” I looked around, whilst also accessing prior knowledge I had of the cities quite unpleasant terrain, but still could not come up with a legitimate answer to the question being asked. After a minute of silence he continued, “Why here?”. Still not knowing how to answer the question, I thought of everything I had learned in school. Then continued visually examining the city, from a point of view where everything is visible. Unable to come up with a valid response, I turned my head and asked. ”Well why not?” I thought to myself in that moment, all along I had been constantly searching for a reason why before everything I did. Everyday I would constantly question whether or not every decision I made was going to benefit me in some way. Not until that moment had I ever thought