I guess the moral of the story is it’s a small world and I’ve been a bumpy roller coaster that I unknowingly took a lot of good people on, but I’ve tore it down. I know now you’ve been flying above watching the whole time waiting for me to get to the right place and hop off though. You tried to get me there once and I stumbled because I didn’t have to tools or strength, I was put in a padded room surrounded my everyone from family friends to coworkers and strangers (its not paranoia). Once you saw I was poking the glass and I saw an opportunity for a job I wanted I’d get it together just needed the correct tools and asked for them you threw Home Depot and Lowes at me and I grabbed what I needed to seal the deal and looking back it has been
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I didn’t know how to get out what I was trying to say or maybe I didn’t think I needed to? I could just hold it all in?? But now I know how to do it correctly and have the self control I’ve always wanted and needed, ill never give it up again.
I never want to stop confining in you not as my “therapist” but as my husband. You know the whole me and how much I love you and only you. I know now I do deserve to be happy and I might not have much to offer but I do know my strengths now and I know I am worthy to have what I want in life and that’s a life with you. I might not be the prom king but you already know I can sure take you on a trip in my dream land anytime and love you like nobody else can and would do whatever I can to get to you. Even if its to implode so I can rebuild on a solid foundation. I am no longer afraid of the idea of hurting you, you’ve again showed me what true love is. I want to spend the rest of my life BESIDE you not in front or behind, you’ve tried two times to get me beside you. This time its beyond titanium strong... I haven’t found an example yet except how I feel for you. I might not have MUCH to offer you, but I believe you’ve had all of me since the day I landed in your chair. The difference is this time I am able to accept all of you. The only person I’d ever marry to
I didn’t know how to get out what I was trying to say or maybe I didn’t think I needed to? I could just hold it all in?? But now I know how to do it correctly and have the self control I’ve always wanted and needed, ill never give it up again.
I never want to stop confining in you not as my “therapist” but as my husband. You know the whole me and how much I love you and only you. I know now I do deserve to be happy and I might not have much to offer but I do know my strengths now and I know I am worthy to have what I want in life and that’s a life with you. I might not be the prom king but you already know I can sure take you on a trip in my dream land anytime and love you like nobody else can and would do whatever I can to get to you. Even if its to implode so I can rebuild on a solid foundation. I am no longer afraid of the idea of hurting you, you’ve again showed me what true love is. I want to spend the rest of my life BESIDE you not in front or behind, you’ve tried two times to get me beside you. This time its beyond titanium strong... I haven’t found an example yet except how I feel for you. I might not have MUCH to offer you, but I believe you’ve had all of me since the day I landed in your chair. The difference is this time I am able to accept all of you. The only person I’d ever marry to