Growing up in a catholic household, I wasn’t taught to think, I was taught to believe. Not that my parents discouraged rationalization, but they naturally included me into their faiths in order for me to grow up with some sense of belonging. For years I followed my mom to church, dressed in my little blue collared shirt and khakis, waddling behind mother duck subordinately without ever thinking for a minute that it was unnecessary. Boring, yes- but never optional. I saw mass as another inescapable aspect of my schedule. As time progressed, I found myself furious with my own beliefs. I was angry at having to go to church every week, I was angry at needing to give things up to observe my religion, and I was angry with God for my life as it was. I was spiteful for the good portion of 2 years, wondering why the world was like this. It didn't even occur to me that I could start practicing my own beliefs until I was already discontented with the way things were. Soon enough, I gathered the courage to tell my mom that I didn't want to go to church anymore. At age 12, confronting
Growing up in a catholic household, I wasn’t taught to think, I was taught to believe. Not that my parents discouraged rationalization, but they naturally included me into their faiths in order for me to grow up with some sense of belonging. For years I followed my mom to church, dressed in my little blue collared shirt and khakis, waddling behind mother duck subordinately without ever thinking for a minute that it was unnecessary. Boring, yes- but never optional. I saw mass as another inescapable aspect of my schedule. As time progressed, I found myself furious with my own beliefs. I was angry at having to go to church every week, I was angry at needing to give things up to observe my religion, and I was angry with God for my life as it was. I was spiteful for the good portion of 2 years, wondering why the world was like this. It didn't even occur to me that I could start practicing my own beliefs until I was already discontented with the way things were. Soon enough, I gathered the courage to tell my mom that I didn't want to go to church anymore. At age 12, confronting