Personal Narrative: The Addiction That Changed My Life

This addiction that I had chosen to let take over my life I look at it as I was already gone. The grief and hurt that my kids and family experiences right away as some held their feelings back others expressed their anger and hurt right away. The way I look at it is that I was already gone in so many ways. I let my loved ones down as well as I pushed them away. I stopped communicating with them unless I needed something. I was even pushing my kids away into the distance when I should have been there to hold, love and nourish them. Instead I would scream, yell and spank them. They would end up in tears for no reason. I went from cherishing and watching them grow up like I was there but I wasn't. I went from being involved with them going on field trips, school events, sports events my daughter's girl scout activities taking them to the parks, baking with them going on walks etc...I isolated myself or took them to a babysitter to chase my high. …show more content…
I stopped going on field trips and walks to the parks.I know that I had hurt my daughter in so many ways not once did I step back to realize it nor did I care at the time rather I was here today gone tomorrow this addiction took over everything rather I was using or 6 feet under I would still be missing out on watching my kids continue to grow up or be involved in anything to do with them. Rather or not I was in this addiction I would still have or would be missing out on their teenage years, high school graduation , college careers, marriage, weddings or how they would grow up in their adult