The day seemed entirely normal. Until my phone rang. I almost didn’t pick up. Now I nearly wish I hadn’t. My mother‘s voice was cheerful and bubble-gum sweet, absolutely nothing like normal, which immediately set me on edge when I answered. She simply wanted to know what I was doing after shopping, she said. Sirens blared in my subconscious. I replied warily, just telling her we were planning on going to lunch afterwards. And soon enough, there it was. A tell-tale crack in her façade. I asked her what was going on, heart in my throat. My mind jumped to the worst-case scenarios, every prediction I had worse than the next.
“Oh, honey,” she finally said. I could hear it now: the ripped-rawness of someone who’s spent the past hour crying. There was only one thing that could make my mom sound like that. “It’s Jayne.” I still remember the looks on my friends’ faces as my hand flew up to my mouth and I made a small noise in the back of my throat. I remember the glances they exchanged, and the way someone’s foot bumped mine questioningly under the table. I held up a finger to say “gimme a sec”, and in my peripherals I saw their expressions change the slightest