Everything my parents tried to shield me from were now exposed. Everything I believed in was a lie. I felt as if I could not trust my parents. Now looking back at it, I understand that my parents did not want me to grow up seeing the horrors in this world. At that time, I was so angry and lost that I never wanted to be home. I did not want to see my own biological family. I began hanging out with the wrong group of people in my neighborhood. This group was a horrible influence on me because all they did was party. At first, it was fun and then I slow saw what I was doing to myself. I completely lost myself that I could not even recognized myself in the mirror. I changed so dramatically and quickly that I did not stop to realize what I was doing. However, I was so deep into my new friend group that I did not know how to escape. Slowly, I began to lost contact with a few of friends. To this day, I have not spoken to any of them in approximately two years and I do not regret my …show more content…
I had to learn the hard way that God will never abandon us in our time of need. When it was time to choose a university, I looked to God for advice. God was the person who helped me make my final decision. He wanted me to know that everything will be alright. Even though I am still working on some issues, I need to know that God is everything I need. It look me a long time to realize all the damage I put on myself. I always used to blame the situation for my suffering, yet I never stop and think that I was making the situation worse. All of my anger is finally lifted and I do not need to carry the burden of knowing how much my father hurt me and my family. I could finally forgive