Personal Narrative: Outdoor Adventure Therapy

When I was twenty-one I had been dating a young man named Andrew for about a year and he received a job in Utah as an outdoor adventure therapist for troubled youth, with a company called Apsiro. He had just moving to Utah and I decided I wanted still have him in my life, so I moved to Park City, Utah, to live with him and find a job. Within the first few months it was all new and exciting and I had found a decent job to support myself. At about the two month time I started to really miss my family and friends back home. To make things a little more difficult Andrew was gone at work over 280 days out of that year, and I had not really made any new friends yet. I started to become very lonely. Another aspect which I believe greatly affected …show more content…
I normally weigh 122lbs-127lbs, and am pretty muscular because I am a very active person who usually eats healthy. I could tell my body was started to change, but I didn’t care enough to do anything about it. I also didn’t know what to do. From living in southern California I had never been to a gym and it was below freezing outside so I couldn’t just put my shorts and running shoes on an go for a jog. My the end of the Winter I had gained 7lbs-9lbs of fat. That happens to be a lot for my body type. I also felt disgusting and my self respect was becoming less and less important. I began to not take care of myself physically in other ways too. I started to not brush my teeth or shower regularly. and my health when down dramatically. I was sick with some sort of cold or stomach problem two thirds of that …show more content…
When snow started to fall outside it made me feel claustrophobic, like the sky was falling in on me, it would make my heart start to race and would feel anxiety, for what seemed like no reason at all. Finally, at the end of the winter Andrew and I went back to California for the first time and I realized that being in Utah made me feel sick. But then I thought maybe it was because I didn’t put in any effort to making a life there. So when we went back to Park City, I really tried to change my lifestyle. I still was having a very difficult time because the weather had not changed. Park City was still in spring, and was getting snow on and off. I remember getting excited to see the new leaves green and growing on the trees and then we would get a random storm and it was kill everything again. That is how my hope for getting out of depression