Personal Narrative: My Pursuit Of Perfection

We do not live in a perfect world: failure is part of reality. I know this, yet I still strive for perfection in all aspects of life. Reaching perfection is a lifeline in times of chaos, but is also a catalyst for chaos in times of sanity. I thrive off of completing goals, and I will go to great lengths to ensure that everything I do is beyond satisfactory. This sometimes leads me to stress over things that are insignificant and allow simple tasks to consume all of my time.
Perfectionists are self-disciplined, self-motivated, determined, and resilient; we refuse to accept any standard short of perfection. These qualities seem favorable, but have massive potential for internal destruction. Extreme self-discipline comes with self-criticism, and expectations of flawlessness comes with fear of failure. My perfectionist tendencies have been present throughout my entire life. They are the reason I am always exceedingly organized and have a perfect report card, but they are also the reason why I struggle to reveal my true self. …show more content…
Even when I am around friends and classmates, I keep a protective barrier up. There is a select group of people that I feel comfortable enough around to show my vulnerability. Outside of that group, I speak and act deliberately. Everything I say and do is well thought out and all possible repercussions are considered. This hesitation prevents me from speaking my mind and sharing my opinions openly, and makes it difficult for me to build relationships. In order to achieve my academic goals, I am going to learn to relax in this aspect of my life. Accepting that I won’t always be well versed in every topic and still sharing my ideas openly will be essential in maximizing the value of my