My freshman year of high school was a tough year. I had a very hard time staying motivated and focused, forget being anywhere near organized. I consistently didn't do my homework and passed in assignments late, my attitude was sarcastic and hostile if I even responded at all, I dreaded everyday of school and barely paid attention in half my classes and wasted my time day dreaming about being anywhere else. I was all in all a miserable student.
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I couldn't just check out of reality when ever I didn't feel good, I had to keep pushing, I had to keep working and I had to make my life what I wanted it to be. High school was just the foundation, I dreamed so vividly of a world away but I wasn't working to get there. High school and then college was my ticket to the lifestyle I wanted. When I finally broke down and spoke honestly with a few of my teachers I was met with an out pouring of support. My new epiphany was buoyed by constant love and support from my grandparents who consistently insisted that I was both capable and intelligent. As well as constant encouragement from my cousins Nick and Lacey.
With time I developed better time management and organizational skills, I still have trouble with motivation but I'm steadily improving. With my sophomore year I realized I had a passion for photography which led me to better self expression, a better understanding of my grief for my father and better understood the inner workings of my own mind.
I've failed and I've done foolish things but I've learned. If there's something I want in this life I'm going to have to work for it, if my dreams are to become realities I can't shrug off reality and stop participating. I'm going to work every day towards what I want so that at the end of each day I can take pride in the knowledge that I did what I could to change my