Personal Narrative: My Personal Experience Of Being An Outsider

From becoming an outsider to being an insider was a change for sure. As S.E. Hinton has once wrote, “Nothing sparkly can stay.”, is a quote I strongly agree with. Having the experience of being on both sides, I can tell that people do change; but I can also tell that being in isn’t always fun.
Life has been quite a ride. I have had plenty ups and downs. The school year started out strong and exciting, I wanted to go to school because of my friends. As school went on, life did as well. I made new friends but left the old ones. I was starting to get well known and I really liked the idea of it. People knew me and talked to me. My new friends brought in new experiences. Weekends were now more fun. I wasn’t known as the quiet girl anymore, I was known as Nykka.
While I was inside, I did not feel like I belonged. I was physically there, but emotionally was not. My thoughts and words were not being taken in and they were just …show more content…
Being on the inside made me over the moon happy. I was so thrilled that I didn’t even realize I was leaving my friends behind. I talked to them less and the distance got greater and greater before I noticed that it was not like before. Calls used to be everyday but they then changed to once a week. Losing friends was a reality check. I was not focusing on what was important but what made me feel happy for that small amount of time. I did not need to be in, I just wanted to. I took in what was happening around me and I figured that I did not want to be in anymore. Drama was rising so fast that it changed everyone’s mood. Everyone was stressed with school, drama and people; like I was. People were changing their personalities, did they change or did they just reveal who they actually are? I could not even focus on school or my work because drama was always lingering in the back of my mind. Being in also meant being in the drama. I saw that I was being emotionally