I am 30 years old and I have spent almost half of my life NOT living with my family.
You see, I was born in New Haven, Connecticut and subsequently “raised” in Wallingford and North Haven, Connecticut.
I love my family and I loved my childhood. I loved so many parts of Connecticut that it is hard to recount them all.
But I ran away from them and that place as fast as my legs could carry me and, for the most part, with hardly a backwards glance.
Now don’t get me wrong. I grew up in a pretty normal way, with a pretty normal life, a pretty normal house and family. School was normal. Friends were normal.
It was all “normal”.
Which is exactly what Connecticut is suppose to be, right?
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But it is debt that I pay every month diligently and with purpose, which has caused my credit score to go from around 400 to 700! (NEVER thought that would happen)
But I don’t lie about who I am and I don’t lie about my short comings.
There are still things that go on in Connecticut that I wish I could change.
I still get heartbreaking phone calls talking about the pain and the lies, the drugs and the money.
There are still people that I love with all of my heart that I wish I could change. But I know I can’t.
People that I wish would take it upon themselves to change. But they won’t.
And I know that.
I know the only way a person can change is by wanting to change.
And I know that at some point, you need to reevaluate what you want your life to be. And you may need to abandon some of those people in order to get that life.
I also know that I never truly “abandoned” anyone.
I had to make a decision in my life to do what was right for me.
It hurt, and it was difficult, but I did it.
And it is something I will never look back on with regret.
XOXO
MAL
Are there any people you felt that you have had to “abandon” in your life in order to lead a happier and healthier one? Please let me know in the comments
You see, I was born in New Haven, Connecticut and subsequently “raised” in Wallingford and North Haven, Connecticut.
I love my family and I loved my childhood. I loved so many parts of Connecticut that it is hard to recount them all.
But I ran away from them and that place as fast as my legs could carry me and, for the most part, with hardly a backwards glance.
Now don’t get me wrong. I grew up in a pretty normal way, with a pretty normal life, a pretty normal house and family. School was normal. Friends were normal.
It was all “normal”.
Which is exactly what Connecticut is suppose to be, right?
Upper middle class suburbia? Nice schools, manicured …show more content…
But it is debt that I pay every month diligently and with purpose, which has caused my credit score to go from around 400 to 700! (NEVER thought that would happen)
But I don’t lie about who I am and I don’t lie about my short comings.
There are still things that go on in Connecticut that I wish I could change.
I still get heartbreaking phone calls talking about the pain and the lies, the drugs and the money.
There are still people that I love with all of my heart that I wish I could change. But I know I can’t.
People that I wish would take it upon themselves to change. But they won’t.
And I know that.
I know the only way a person can change is by wanting to change.
And I know that at some point, you need to reevaluate what you want your life to be. And you may need to abandon some of those people in order to get that life.
I also know that I never truly “abandoned” anyone.
I had to make a decision in my life to do what was right for me.
It hurt, and it was difficult, but I did it.
And it is something I will never look back on with regret.
XOXO
MAL
Are there any people you felt that you have had to “abandon” in your life in order to lead a happier and healthier one? Please let me know in the comments