Personal Narrative: My First Two Years Of Major Depression

During my first two years of high school, I was going through major depression and had suicidal tendencies. I honestly didn’t think I was going to get better as it was very difficult to enjoy things, from the constant guilt and loneliness I felt. During my freshman year of high school, I didn’t do any extra curricular activities due to me feeling this way. Once I got home from school, I would just lock myself up in my room and go to sleep. When I thought about my future, I always thought I was going to end it as soon as I could because I didn’t think that I had the ability to do great things and I was just tired of living. I hated this feeling, I wanted it to stop, but I didn't know what to do. It wasn’t until one day, a girl in my class, Kaela, helped me take a step to recovery which was getting help. She notified the counselors about what was going on and she guided me in the right direction. I thank her so much because she saved my life and she barely knew who I was beside the girl who helped her with her history homework. She made me realize that people do care about you even if they don’t know who you are and that every life is precious. While I was in my sophomore year of high school, she had passed away in a car accident. After that tragic accident, it made me value my life, from that point on, I …show more content…
To get where I am now, it took a lot of time, effort, and will to think positively about things and not harm myself. I learned a lot of lessons from others that helped me live my life in a more positive way. A big lesson that I learned is that in order to make others content, I have to be content with myself. I struggle with this daily because I hate seeing people upset or disappointing them, but doing this is a vital part for me to maintain my mental and emotional health. Another lesson I learned is that I can’t control what life throws at me because life is