I remember being devastated at first about him getting killed. That was a major drawback for me in life. I started being antisocial towards everyone. I went through depressions and withdrawals from my daily activities. I had to fight myself to get up and go to school every day. Than in school I had to act like I was okay, so people wouldn’t feel pity for me and treat me differently.
But one day I remember going to his gravesite and talking to him. And I realized that I wouldn’t use