When I noticed, I was on top of an unfamiliar bed. That experience-it feels like a dream to me now-but I clearly remember the white ceiling without the shadow and nose stinging because of the smell of medicine.
I was in one of the rooms in the psychiatric ward of some hospital.
I was covered in bandages all over my body (even my face and my head), and pain ran through my whole body-my back, my stomach, my neck-every single place. It felt like a countless needle was piercing my body. That kind of pain.
I understood that I had some awful injury, but I couldn’t figure out why I was in that kind of place. At that time, it was a wonder-well more strange.
Soon, a doctor came in my room and took charge of me. He said his name was Dr. Elwood. He looked like he …show more content…
He told me that when I arrived at this hospital, it was unbelievable that I was still alive. Lastly, he told me that in order to save my life, he had no choice but to amputate both of my legs.
I didn’t notice that my legs weren’t connected to my body until he brought it up. The sharp pain that I had before was because of this.
I was both shocked and angry at the same time.
I screamed and struggled to get up. I tried to hit the doctor, but my body wouldn’t listen to me. My legs wouldn’t listen to me.
The doctors and the nurses tried to calm me down. Even so, I swung my arm around blindly while crying and screaming. I think I got a shot from one of the nurses. I saw the world become a blur, colors meshing with other colors, and objects blurring together. My arms went weak... I was falling, falling and I couldn't stop. I hit something hard, but couldn't feel it, I only heard the sound of my body meeting the ground. My eyelids were heavy, and then, there was nothing. Silent darkness without thought or imagining, it was as if the world no longer existed. As I slept, I admitted the emptiness in my
I was in one of the rooms in the psychiatric ward of some hospital.
I was covered in bandages all over my body (even my face and my head), and pain ran through my whole body-my back, my stomach, my neck-every single place. It felt like a countless needle was piercing my body. That kind of pain.
I understood that I had some awful injury, but I couldn’t figure out why I was in that kind of place. At that time, it was a wonder-well more strange.
Soon, a doctor came in my room and took charge of me. He said his name was Dr. Elwood. He looked like he …show more content…
He told me that when I arrived at this hospital, it was unbelievable that I was still alive. Lastly, he told me that in order to save my life, he had no choice but to amputate both of my legs.
I didn’t notice that my legs weren’t connected to my body until he brought it up. The sharp pain that I had before was because of this.
I was both shocked and angry at the same time.
I screamed and struggled to get up. I tried to hit the doctor, but my body wouldn’t listen to me. My legs wouldn’t listen to me.
The doctors and the nurses tried to calm me down. Even so, I swung my arm around blindly while crying and screaming. I think I got a shot from one of the nurses. I saw the world become a blur, colors meshing with other colors, and objects blurring together. My arms went weak... I was falling, falling and I couldn't stop. I hit something hard, but couldn't feel it, I only heard the sound of my body meeting the ground. My eyelids were heavy, and then, there was nothing. Silent darkness without thought or imagining, it was as if the world no longer existed. As I slept, I admitted the emptiness in my