Personal Narrative: My Experience As A Counselor/Patient Therapy

The writing of this entry in pencil was inhibiting me from expressing what I needed, so I hope this form is acceptable. And, also, I’ll try to refrain from treating this like a counselor/patient therapy session, only because some of what I may want to express will come off controversial and I don’t want to offend.
The ‘inner turmoil’ I speak of pertains to my faith, beliefs and struggle to grasp religious obligations handed down by religious authorities, as well, as the personal opinions of fellow believers. And, moreover, the institutions of organized religions and conditioning of faith since childhood.
At the time of my first years of life, I was surrounded by some spiritual and christian beliefs. It was intertwined through the church where my grandfather preached and witnessing, first-hand, my aunt practicing our people’s ceremonies. Also, the indecisiveness of family members who were for neither side was a third factor.
As I got older, the church going became more like a punishment and obligation. Only because my aunt felt she knew what was best for me and I was going to see the truth, to fully submit, not just be guided to it. But, consequently, she didn’t know her actions planted a seed of disillusion. One that grew from all the negative feedback I received, as well, as the actions of some so-called faithful congregation. …show more content…
Even to the point of action on a few characteristics that made one a model believer, but it became a decision that caused me more confusion and, to this day, makes me question the method I used. The incident involved a fellow believer being picked on by another classmate about his faith, so I felt I should intervene and show support for him. The outcome of that involved both of them to start ridiculing me. Heartbroken and tears welling up, I kept my head down throughout the day and