Upon my entry into high school I could be described as an overweight anxiety ridden freshman. At this time, my anxiety was rooted in my fear of school and mirrors. School because of the hundreds of students waiting to cast their judgments upon me and mirrors because of the reflection that appeared. My morning routine had entailed two hours of countless outfit changes and a great deal of mental breakdowns. As the day continued I would consciously avoid all mirrors and if I saw my reflection I was left with disappointment and more anxiety. In regards to me being overweight, my days were the epitome of a "fat kid". Excessive television time and overindulgent eating habits. As more weight packed on more anxiety would follow. This type of living had
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My thoughts, my words, my feelings, and my actions. Looking back at this time in my life I see an unhappy bitter girl. The negative lifestyle that I was living however was a reflection of my deep insecurity. Insecure because the label fat girl holds an immense amount of weight, literally and figuratively. However, this was all transformed after an annual physical with my doctor resulted in a serious conversation about the necessity to change my diet and exercise, promptly. From that conversation on my style of living had evolved into a considerably healthy one. Exercise although not initially easy had become my outlet for thinking and mood-boosting. My eating habits became healthier and were significantly reduced. And my ability to think positively became consistent. The drastic changes I made were however not always easy. One particularly strenuous task I faced was consistently pushing my body to its ultimate limits at a gym that was covered in mirrors. After losing 50 pounds, life in my eyes has transformed from melancholic to refreshing and full of opportunity. Although my transformation began with my doctor fat-shaming me, I attribute my success to my ability to resolve a significant problem in a productive and positive way. Losing weight was more than a bodily change it was a change that created empowerment and a desire to
My thoughts, my words, my feelings, and my actions. Looking back at this time in my life I see an unhappy bitter girl. The negative lifestyle that I was living however was a reflection of my deep insecurity. Insecure because the label fat girl holds an immense amount of weight, literally and figuratively. However, this was all transformed after an annual physical with my doctor resulted in a serious conversation about the necessity to change my diet and exercise, promptly. From that conversation on my style of living had evolved into a considerably healthy one. Exercise although not initially easy had become my outlet for thinking and mood-boosting. My eating habits became healthier and were significantly reduced. And my ability to think positively became consistent. The drastic changes I made were however not always easy. One particularly strenuous task I faced was consistently pushing my body to its ultimate limits at a gym that was covered in mirrors. After losing 50 pounds, life in my eyes has transformed from melancholic to refreshing and full of opportunity. Although my transformation began with my doctor fat-shaming me, I attribute my success to my ability to resolve a significant problem in a productive and positive way. Losing weight was more than a bodily change it was a change that created empowerment and a desire to